Letter of lost count
Dear you,
Yes, you. Still the same you.
This evening, I listened to newest Mraz’s song - I Won’t Give Up. It was funny because my mind played a video where I acted like a lunatic after our so-called-break up.
It was sad. For me.
I was then thanked God that I did not listen to this song six months ago, otherwise I would just go mad and do something that you would not dare to imagine. Neither would I. Well, like I probably let myself drown into a Baltic Sea and eaten by a shark. Dramatic enough, eh?
Yes, little bit overrated. I know.
Dear you,
I know that you probably happy now. Having someone else by your side, someone that loves you and so do you. It must be really…really..well, I can not find the suitable words. But you can guess, knowing that fact made me frustrated, especially that you were (which was intentional or not) the one who is telling me.
But hey, I am fine now.
Dear you,
Probably you do not have a slightest thought about me now, no I bet you don’t.
People change. So do you. So do I. So does the so called relationship between us. We are no longer say hi to each other. At least that’s what happen. No communication at all. Or maybe you like it that way?
But if you asked me, then yes, I somehow feel comfortable with this moment. I don’t even know and don’t wanna know what we are now.
But maybe that’s the best for us not to have a single definition, the definition that killed us before. It’s the best that each of us have our own life, walk on our own journey, laugh happily.
Who knows that later in time, our path would cross and then we would meet again, in a better situation.
Yeah, who knows.
Dear you,
I just read all the letters and words of despair I wrote you back then, and you know what? I have never really realised that I liked you so much..that you were able to make me fall for you.
Hence, the most happiest feeling is when I read them all and I felt nothing. I feel like I was so stupid and then I started to laugh about it all. Knowing that my feeling towards you already reached..I dunno..null percent?
That is quite relieving.
Dear you,
As a good friend that I once had, I only wish that you have a good and happiness life there. Good bye :)
rgrds,
.putt.
